Month: March 2020

Let Your Inner You Come Out

Let your inner you out to have fun and come alive. I’m not sure where I heard this, but it immediately resonated with me. I am one who has been extremely rigid in my way of living in the past few years. I cared so much about other people’s opinions that I didn’t let myself be myself. I wouldn’t laugh at some things, I … Read More Let Your Inner You Come Out

Dreams

There is so much programming out there telling us to “follow your dreams” or “let your imagination run wild” or even “you can be anything your heart desires.” The problem with this programming is that it isn’t universal. Depending on where you grow up and where you come from, you might not have dreams, an imagination, or even know anything more than the small … Read More Dreams

Consistency And Stability

My parents got divorced when I was 12. Every year after that, my mother moved us to a new home or moved our trailer to a new location. We were always moving. Gone were the days of any consistency with life. Stability? Yeah that didn’t exist either. I moved out when I was 17 and moved frequently for a few years after that. I … Read More Consistency And Stability

Fear: I Can’t Do What I Need in My Own Home

Not long ago we had company for a week. Company that we love having and wouldn’t want to push away. But I work from home. And I tend to work in more locations than just the office with the desk. I have a lounger section of our couch and the kitchen counter that I work from. Working on a laptop makes it easy to … Read More Fear: I Can’t Do What I Need in My Own Home

Are You a Chameleon?

Do you mold yourself to the people around you? Do you change to fit into the situation you are in? Are you a chameleon? I was. I was for most of my life and it defined who I was. I didn’t know how to be anything different. Being a chameleon for me meant that I had no idea who I was. I didn’t allow … Read More Are You a Chameleon?

NQTD

When you make a decision, how often do you question it? Are you like me and question most decisions you make? No? Okay, well maybe this isn’t for you then. Yes? Oh then stay tuned. Why do we question decisions? I have learned that I question my decisions because I haven’t trusted myself. It’s a sad realization and a challenging one to overcome. It … Read More NQTD

They Aren’t In My Life For A Reason

I have many people who I do not allow in my life for various reasons. I have some people that I’ve allowed back into my life, but I’m struggling giving them full access again. There are some people I have on a line of whether or not I continue to associate with them. Many people see me as a bitch for being this controlled … Read More They Aren’t In My Life For A Reason

When Caring Turns Into I’m Not Good Enough

I am learning more and more that I care about people more than most. What I mean by that is that I am always finding ways to make other people feel good or to take care of others or to lift their spirits. I do it because I love seeing people’s eyes light up or seeing them feel loved. And I probably love seeing … Read More When Caring Turns Into I’m Not Good Enough

Freedom

All of my life, I was looking outside of myself for freedom to be myself or freedom to be successful or even just the freedom to be loved. As a child, I witnessed that all of these came from external sources. The primary example I had was that nothing good came to me if it wasn’t granted by someone else. I haven’t had the … Read More Freedom