My Abundance of Time

Our lives have all been turned upside down. From the local economy to the world as a whole, nothing is the same as it was just a couple of months ago. So much has changed in such a short time. Time is what so many of us want more of, yet we don’t do anything different when we get it.

Recently I read Being Mortal by Atul Gawande and in one of the chapters, he mentions a hypothesis that was formulated by Stanford psychologist Laura Carstensen: how we seek to spend our time may depend on how much time we perceive ourselves to have.

So I am asking you, how are you spending your time? Are you spending it as though you have an abundance of time and will live “forever”, or are you spending it as thought this gift (or curse, depending on how you look at it) of extra time will come to an end?

I can tell you how I have always lived my life: like I have more than an abundance of time, yet as though there is not enough time. I have lived with contradictory habits around time for as long as I can remember. You see, I am that person who is always on time. And by on time, I mean I am no less than 10 minutes early to everything. I also make sure that the house is perfect hours before people actually come over. I generally have to slow myself down in food preparation because I am so anxious about being behind when people arrive. I get horribly anxious about being late (remember the 10 minutes early from above) for everything. This anxiety almost hurts.

But, I also live as though I have all the time in the world. I have goals I want to accomplish and I diddle dawdle around them every single day. I save recording and editing my YouTube videos until almost the last day before they are “scheduled” to post. I procrastinate in getting coaching content created and published to this website. I have pictures and video for our Desert Mountain Overland website and Instagram that are months old that I haven’t even reviewed for editing. I have so much that I want to do, but I don’t do it.

I live very contradicting outlooks on time. Do you? Are you like me?

We have been given this extra time to be home with our families. For some people, this extra time is definitely not a blessing, and I get that, and I’m praying for speedy healing for everyone. But the rest of us who are bitching that we can’t go do the things that our every day life normally calls for? Yeah, we have been given a blessing of extra time.

No, I don’t have kids. But if I did, I’d hug them more, play in the yard more, cook with them more, play games, take walks, learn their schoolwork with them, and more. I would enjoy that time I get to have being together, even when the little shits are fighting or being sassy. This is time I wouldn’t have had with them otherwise.

As for what I’m actually doing? Well, I am writing this post a couple weeks ahead of time and up until this post, I’ve only really done a little of what I want to do to grow as a person and both of my “businesses”. But, I can tell you what I do want to do more of. I want to read more and take better notes of what I’m learning, I want to be more energetic in recording my YouTube videos, I want to get in the garden and yard more, I want to walk the dogs more, I want to learn how to fly my drone, I want more sexy time with my husband, I want to develop more content for you, and I want to edit and produce more images and videos that I have stored from previous off-roading or camping trips. I want to learn more. I want to share more. I want to inspire you more.

I want to use my abundance of time to finally stop being a procrastinating dreamer. I want to get off my ass and get shit done.

What do you want to do with your gift of time??

Again, if you or anyone you know is or has been affected by this virus, I am praying for a speedy, full recovery.

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