Tag: Family

You Are Too Close

Part of who I am yearns for closeness and feeling love from others. But the rest of me yearns for solitude. It is a difficult balance that I used to ignore by drinking alcohol to be more social. Alcohol released my feeling of overwhelm or nervousness when around others, especially large groups. I used to think I was weird or had something wrong with … Read More You Are Too Close

I Have a Lot of Empathy

What is empathy and how do I know if I have it? Is it really something I can “have?” According to Psychology Today, empathy is the ability to recognize, understand, and share the thoughts and feelings of another person, animal, or fictional character. Empathy is not to be confused with sympathy. Sympathy is the feeling of concern for another person or a desire for … Read More I Have a Lot of Empathy

Thoughts About Family

I’ve seen so many quotes that say things like “family is everything” or “blood is thicker than water.” These are all over social media and people use them in everyday conversation. The underlying theme is that, no matter what, family sticks together. I wish life was as simple as that. For some families, it is. For mine, it is not. If I were to … Read More Thoughts About Family

They Aren’t In My Life For A Reason

I have many people who I do not allow in my life for various reasons. I have some people that I’ve allowed back into my life, but I’m struggling giving them full access again. There are some people I have on a line of whether or not I continue to associate with them. Many people see me as a bitch for being this controlled … Read More They Aren’t In My Life For A Reason

Give Your Trust Away

I’ve heard this from a couple of the mentors that I follow. Gary Vee and Trent Shelton say this over and over again. I have been doing this for most of my life without any though. It was only in the past couple of years that I started to pull back on giving my trust away. I was tired of giving it away and … Read More Give Your Trust Away

Judging Myself

All of my life I have wanted to be taken seriously. I stopped playing with toys quickly. I didn’t want to wear anything that resembled cartoon characters I liked. I stopped watching animated movies. I wanted to be mature and smart. But I never judged anybody who wore character clothing or watched animated movies. I just judged myself. After all, we are our own … Read More Judging Myself

I Am Me

I am me, regardless of my weight. I am me, regardless of my salary. I am me, regardless of my job. I am me, regardless of who my immediate family is. I am me and that is who I will be. I am me and I am learning to be comfortable with who I am. I have spent most of my life trying to be someone else. I … Read More I Am Me

Recovery

Recovery can mean many things to many people. It can be quick, or it can be a process. The most common thing I’m learning that most people in any kind of recovery face is misunderstanding by others. Then the feeling of loneliness. I was having a conversation with a friend yesterday, who is also recovering from surgery, and I realized that no matter how … Read More Recovery

Assumptions

Assumptions are my kryptonite. I frequently devise my own assumptions before I know truth. I have always battled my assumptions and I assume I always will. An assumption is defined as something that is accepted as true or certain to happen without proof. My assumptions are what Eddie and I disagree over the most. Eddie pretty much doesn’t ever assume anything. I tend to assume everything. One … Read More Assumptions

Words of Affirmation

I started listening to The Five Love Languages by Dr. Gary Chapman. I’ve taken the quiz before, in fact, multiple times, but I had not yet read or listened to the book. I can’t even remember what I determined my love language is. As of writing this, I can’t even tell you all of the love languages. What I can tell you is what … Read More Words of Affirmation

Fear of Not Being Like Them

If you can’t get over your fear of not doing it as well as they do, you’ll never have the opportunity to be a trail blazer for someone else. – Rachel Hollis, Girl, Stop Apologizing I have a lot of fears in life. I was pretty much only taught how to be fearful. I have let most of my life been run by my … Read More Fear of Not Being Like Them

Because I Want To

A few weeks ago I was on a camping trip with family and friends and wanted to go hike to this cave that was along the road. It wasn’t a big cave and didn’t have an established hike, but it looked cool. My friend and I went to scope it out and see if it was even possible to hike to. Yes, it was. … Read More Because I Want To