Tag: friends

I Have Got to Recharge

I am one who needs to recharge frequently. Whether it be simply from working five days a week or because I’ve been around a lot of people, I need time to get my mind right. Now, let me tell you what ‘getting my mind right’ really means for me. It means a couple of things. First, for me it means releasing all of the … Read More I Have Got to Recharge

I Am A Vault

I am a vault for all of my friends’ problems. I am a vault for anybody’s problems. I haven’t always been this way though. My need to be liked and my craving for people caused me to break barriers I never thought I would. It also caused me to do anything to keep the attention of anybody who I thought might care for me, … Read More I Am A Vault

Why Are There So Many People

I hate crowds. HATE crowds. In any situation. For many different reasons. Crowds stress me out and ruin my mood. It doesn’t matter if the crowd is the crowds at the mall, in the mountains, or large family gatherings. Crowds are not for me. I used to think this was just a factor of being introverted. I believe, and I haven’t researched this, that … Read More Why Are There So Many People

You Are Too Close

Part of who I am yearns for closeness and feeling love from others. But the rest of me yearns for solitude. It is a difficult balance that I used to ignore by drinking alcohol to be more social. Alcohol released my feeling of overwhelm or nervousness when around others, especially large groups. I used to think I was weird or had something wrong with … Read More You Are Too Close

Thoughts About Family

I’ve seen so many quotes that say things like “family is everything” or “blood is thicker than water.” These are all over social media and people use them in everyday conversation. The underlying theme is that, no matter what, family sticks together. I wish life was as simple as that. For some families, it is. For mine, it is not. If I were to … Read More Thoughts About Family

Assumptions

Assumptions are my kryptonite. I frequently devise my own assumptions before I know truth. I have always battled my assumptions and I assume I always will. An assumption is defined as something that is accepted as true or certain to happen without proof. My assumptions are what Eddie and I disagree over the most. Eddie pretty much doesn’t ever assume anything. I tend to assume everything. One … Read More Assumptions

Words of Affirmation

I started listening to The Five Love Languages by Dr. Gary Chapman. I’ve taken the quiz before, in fact, multiple times, but I had not yet read or listened to the book. I can’t even remember what I determined my love language is. As of writing this, I can’t even tell you all of the love languages. What I can tell you is what … Read More Words of Affirmation

Fear of Not Being Like Them

If you can’t get over your fear of not doing it as well as they do, you’ll never have the opportunity to be a trail blazer for someone else. – Rachel Hollis, Girl, Stop Apologizing I have a lot of fears in life. I was pretty much only taught how to be fearful. I have let most of my life been run by my … Read More Fear of Not Being Like Them

Because I Want To

A few weeks ago I was on a camping trip with family and friends and wanted to go hike to this cave that was along the road. It wasn’t a big cave and didn’t have an established hike, but it looked cool. My friend and I went to scope it out and see if it was even possible to hike to. Yes, it was. … Read More Because I Want To

Shame

Yesterday I posted this blurb on Instagram. And now I want to expand on it even further. You see, shame is something that we each deal with differently. We might see some of our shame journey in other people, but it is still different. No matter how different our shame is, we are not in this alone. You are not suffering through shame’s grasp … Read More Shame

Alcohol Part Two

If you haven’t read Alcohol Part One, go back and read that entry first. The social aspect of drinking is a big one within my friend’s group and family. Wine nights, wine chats, camping, pool parties, barbeques, holidays, and just hanging out are just some of the times that alcohol is a beverage of choice. Hell, my girlfriend’s and I used to even grab a … Read More Alcohol Part Two

Faith

Faith in our world is something that can be very contentious. Who do you believe in? How strong of a believer are you? Why don’t you believe? What church do you go to? Why don’t you go to church? Why do you despise people who are faithful or go to church? Why do you judge others because their faith is different? Why do you … Read More Faith