Tag: surgery

When Caring Turns Into I’m Not Good Enough

I am learning more and more that I care about people more than most. What I mean by that is that I am always finding ways to make other people feel good or to take care of others or to lift their spirits. I do it because I love seeing people’s eyes light up or seeing them feel loved. And I probably love seeing … Read More When Caring Turns Into I’m Not Good Enough

Recovery

Recovery can mean many things to many people. It can be quick, or it can be a process. The most common thing I’m learning that most people in any kind of recovery face is misunderstanding by others. Then the feeling of loneliness. I was having a conversation with a friend yesterday, who is also recovering from surgery, and I realized that no matter how … Read More Recovery

Deflated But Not Defeated

I had a reality check last week that set me down a dark path. I decided to give myself one week to wallow in this path before I checked myself. I never once stopped to consider that I might not ever return to full physical capacity again. Well, my version of full physical capacity. That notion never crossed my mind. I didn’t consider any … Read More Deflated But Not Defeated

Frustrated

My recovery from my L5-S1 spinal fusion is hitting three months post-op tomorrow. It feels momentous. It feels depressing. It is frustrating. I read so many accounts of slow recoveries after surgery and kept thinking to myself that I wouldn’t sit in the season, I would work to recover better and faster. I have. I am recovering faster than most do. But I’m still … Read More Frustrated

Alcohol Part One

When we think of alcohol, we think of many types as well as different types of people who drink it. When someone talks about alcohol like I’m about to, I get uncomfortable. And that’s why I’m sharing this with you. A little history: I grew up in a home with a drug addict, alcoholic father and a pill addicted, maybe alcoholic mother. I don’t … Read More Alcohol Part One

Recovery

Recovery from anything is always going to be different for each person. Even recovery from back surgery. Prior to my surgery, I did a lot of research online and in Facebook groups to learn about all the recovery tips, tricks, and timelines that I could. The problem I was finding was that most information that is published about recovery is about the slow recoveries. … Read More Recovery

Fuzzy

That’s how I am going to describe my first week after my surgery. One week ago today I had surgery to fuse L5 to S1 to help correct my spondylolisthesis. I was fully prepared for the surgery and ready to get it over with. The surgery went well, not exactly to plan, but well. It seems my doctor found that I also have spina … Read More Fuzzy