Once again, it’s been a couple months. I definitely haven’t been consistent at sharing life I had wanted to. I could sit here and beat myself up, telling you how awful I feel, how awful of a person I am because there is no way that I should expect you to keep following me. I could.
But I’m not. Life happens. I started questioning whether I really wanted to keep sharing with you. I questioned whether I was strong enough to get to a point that I have critics who berate me in the comments. I questioned whether the energy was worth it.
To me it is. This past week I came across a new blog for me to follow. She is doing exactly what I want to do. I mean, if this chick is doing what I want to, why would I continue?The only difference is, wait for it……….she is different than me. Novel concept, right?
Even though I stopped sharing my days of sharing what I’m doing to take back my life, I’ve still been working on it. When I look back at Day 1: Me, I know I definitely haven’t done everything I wanted to. But that’s okay, I still can.
The most important part is that I’ve continued to take care of myself. Yes, I absolutely have days that I push myself beyond what my back can take. Yes, I’ve watched more TV than I really wanted to. But that is all part of taking care of myself. There are reasons each of those happened. But as I type this, I think about today and what I’ve accomplished.
To some, not a damn thing. To me, a lot. I have had all day, since my husband left at 8 am this morning, to do whatever I wanted. I have watched maybe five hours of TV total. That wasn’t all at once either. I did some personal development. I set out my intentions for this next week. I went and exchanged some new bras I bought that didn’t fit. I washed the comforter on the guest bed. Never mind it is still in the dryer long after the dryer finished. I’ve taken care of me.
I’ve made some changes recently too. I was running a separate Instagram account so I could share whatever I wanted without fear of offending those closest to me and so I had a private account where I can share young family. Well, sorry, but I am at a point I really don’t care what those closest to me think, I have to live MY life true to me. And, I can still share young family, with the permission of their parents.
The biggest thing I’ve worked on in the past few months is being true to who I am. I hope you stay along for the ride, because I want to share my ups and downs on this journey. You are not alone.